"He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away." (Raymond Hull) What a true statement. In a world that is constantly changing so many people waste their life trying to live up to the billboards and TV ad's of the day, only to find it has changed tomorrow. Nathaniel Hawthorne once said "No man for any considerable period can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true." I believe so many people waste their life trying to "find themselves" when really they are really simply trying to create themselves as they've seen in someone else's life. In doing so, they lose who they truly are. When you look at the stars of today, many Christians like to point out Tim Tebow. I would dare to say for most it's not the faith they want to be bold in as he is... it's the fame for the faith. Everyone wants to be like that person but what they are forgetting is the reason they wanted to be like that person was because they were unique.
What does any of this have to do with me? Well seeing how I'm not really one caught up in billboards and TV stars, for me it comes back to getting through my dad's death. If there is one thing I have learned, it's that grieving is different for everyone, and it takes different methods and time spans for everyone! For a year I spent time listening to people tell me I couldn't think certain ways, I couldn't cry, I couldn't have bad days, I had to smile all the time, I had to do everything and carry on as normal. Though all of that would be nice at 11pm...12am...1am...2am when all that fakeness was gone and it was me..and me alone, that's when I realized I wasn't getting anywhere and I had to change something. You have to be true to yourself...if you are hurting- tell someone you're hurting. If your happy, try to help someone who is having a bad day. But NEVER feel bad for being honest about how you feel. Until one can accept who they are, they can never see any way to change who they are.
Today's challenge is simple be honest with yourself. As usual....below I have listed some things I must be honest about.
1. I am far from accepting my dad's death as being okay.
2. I am not strong at all...I'm actually pretty weak when it comes to my emotional status.
3. I absolutely hate the way life has turned out for me- but God must have some plan so here I am.
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